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Date:2008-12-28 23:24
Subject:To those of you...

...who still want to follow my daily ramblings, leave me a comment and add my new journal!


Hope to see you guys there!!!

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Date:2008-01-06 02:02
Subject:It's Been Awhile

I haven't updated this livejournal account since 2001, talk about a long time. 

Just a quick update I suppose. 

I'm now 19 years old and I live in Canada. 

I lost my Dad back in 2004 to Bone Marrow Failure (I was 15 when he passed). 

My mom and I are closer now then we ever were before. 

I've been in a relationship for almost 2 years with an amazing boy named Andrew (January 13th, 2006). 

I'm currently in my 2nd year of college going for my Master's Degree in Nursing in hopes of being a Hospice Nurse. 

Rereading this journal really makes you wonder about life, and how weird I was back in the old days!  

2 lovers / love me

Date:2001-08-23 15:54
Subject:Oh my fucking god....
Mood: ecstatic


2 lovers / love me

Date:2001-08-22 15:06

i decided to take some more tests :x i stole this one from jenna here's my analysis

Your view on yourself

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girl/boyfriend you are looking for.

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship.

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love.

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you.

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important; find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success?

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Do not give up when you have not even started yet! Be courageous!
What are you most afraid of?

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self?

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart, rather than your head, needs to solve.

1 lover / love me

Date:2001-08-20 19:19
Subject:happy happy happy!! im not leaving Lj
Mood: happy

I'm so happy *dances, sings, and dances some more* I'm not leaving livejournal. I need to accept the fact that sometimes, opinions don't matter and that people are as "mentally disturbed" as i am. hmm... mentallydisturbed would be a good aol name. ANYWAY. Daniel came over yesterday at 10:15am. He was supposed to come at noon dammit, i guess he didn't realize how short the drive was on a sunday morning. so he and i chilled out for awhile then we decided to drive up to best buy. he baught the gorillaz cd and the atlantis sound track. it was pretty interesting. then we stopped for lunch at mcdonalds and i only had about 6 french fries and a small diet coke. then megan came over around 2ish i think. at 4 we decided to go swimming for 2� hours and that was madddddd fun! then we were getting tired n shit, and my mom was like... all high n shit because of her pain killers. so we ate dinner. and i go to my mom "can daniel crash here for the night?" and she's all like ya sure but he has to sleep in your room and megan has to sleep on the couch. well, this is how it went. daniel and i slept on the floor together (aww we snuggled ) and megan slept on the bed. daniel and i were up until maybe 3am at best. *smiles* oooo.... i almost forgot the BEST news of all. daniel asked me to be his girlfriend. yup *bigger smile than before* i'm so fucking happy!! we were also messing with the webcam last night... here's some pics....

daniel smiling... isn't he cute??

lol, he looks kinda weird in this pic....

i love this pic of him... woo,,... he looks like a demon though. sessi!

don't we just make the cutest/weirdest darn couple you've ever seen!?

has anybody ever noticed that after somebody leaves that you REALLY like... you kind of get this feeling of emptiness inside. agh... i miss daniel... he left this morning at 8:45, but it was well worth seeing him.

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Date:2001-08-19 01:44

this is my last entry. umm, i dont think i'm starting another journal since i'm "mentally unstable" (a direct quote from brian) and well, erm,... thanks for reading. if anybody ever needs anything my email is:


buh bye!!

(Monday my journal will be deleted)

8 lovers / love me

Date:2001-08-19 00:53
Mood: frustrated

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point proven?


also to let you know,... by august 23rd i will no longer be writing in this journal... i will be posting new entries here

updat your favorites please!

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Date:2001-08-18 23:07

guys piss me off --- if tomorrow doesn't go well, ima scream

*ahem* why do guys USE you the LOSE you?
(im not talking about eric)

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Date:2001-08-18 23:02
Subject:nuthing new
Mood: excited

i thought i would write, even though i really have nothing exciting to write about. i got up about 12:41 this morning, dragged my ass out of bed and sat on my ass all day (anything else new??) did some cleaning. then megan came over with her family. her dad installed my parens new computer which officially means i can clean all the shit off of this one. gah. megan and i sun bathed and cleaned out the paddle boat. daniel is coming over tomorrow *he's driving up from the keys* and he got me a bag of glow sticks, lmfao.... anybody besides me ever notice how thos are addictive? he *might* be coming over before noon tomorrow. agh... too early. so unfortunatly, i'll be hitting the sack early tonight. i'll probably clean my room before than... i need beauty sleep ... agh, maybe i'll become a beauty? well, megan is coming back over tomorrow to see daniel... wo0t, im excited. it'll be like in june :) well... i'll *try* to write tomorrow. xox

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Date:2001-08-17 16:17
Subject:s u r v e y
Mood: bored

jenna sent me a survery. thought i'd post it on here!

Full Name: ashley marie *****
Nicknames: ablen, boo, ash, leigh, candy slut
Birthday: 4-16-88
Birthplace: Levittown, Pennsylvania
Location currently: computer room @ home
Sex: girl
School: indian ridge
Grade: going into 8th
Current Job: no job. no money. :(
Hair Color: currently black
Eye Color: greenish
Height: 5'4

Cartoon: daria, the undergrads
Comic: super man!! *shows off her superman underwear* j.k
Color: black, pink, blue
Movie(s): Ameircan Pie (1 &2), Fast and the Furious, gone in 60 seconds, etc.
Fast Food Restaurant: Wendy's
Food: salad, pizza, corn, chicken
Book: go ask alice
TV Show: Spyder Game, and Undressed
Soloist: Tori Amos
Band/Group: check out my "info" page, i have them listed there
Song: here's to the night - eve 6
Beverage: moutain dew
Subject in School: umm, *shrugs* lunch
Perfume/Cologne Smell: TommyGirl, Calvin Kline
Number: anything odd
Flower: white roses
Store: hot topic

Family: mom, dad, brother, 2 sisters, 2 dogs, 1 cat
Best Gal Friend: jenna, nicole, heathers, megan
Best cousins: hate them both
2nd Best Gal Friend: shrugs
3rd Best Gal Friend: shrugs
Best Guy Friend: daniel, richard, brian, eric, jay, rayleigh
The Funniest Person(s): kelly, ashley, barb
Sweetest Person you know: jenna and jess
The Scariest Person you Know: Kelly Chapman *shudders*
The hottest person in the public eye: Marilyn Manson, PJ Harvey,
Hottest friend: tard and heather
Friend you miss the most: jenna and eric ... MIKE *rip*
Most Athletic Friend: ummm... *ponders* iuno
Loudest friend: ME... lol other than me would be jenna h/
Quietest Friend: jill!
Dream guy/girl: *no comment*
The Person you Hate the Most: *mumbles a name*
Your Crush: *blush* anyway
The least likely person to respond: everybody

Your most overused phrase: rotl, lmfao, lol, wtf, dude
Your shoe size: 10
The Best Name for a Butler: Hubert
Future Daughter's Name(s): Gwendolyn *or gwennith, either way gwen for short*, Constance, MacKenzie
Future Son's Name(s): Michael, Johnathan, Zachariya
Dream job: Child Psychologist
The wussiest sport: cheerleading *spits* sorry !!
Your greatest fear: heights
Your best memory : the keys
In your CD player: Alkaline Trio

Pepsi or Coke: Coke
Single or group dates: either
Adidas or Nike: neither
Rugrats or Doug: rugrats
Antz or A Bug's Life: Antz
Monica or Brandy: neither
Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes: neither
N*SYNC or Backstreet Boys: NEITHER
Matchbox 20 or BareNaked Ladies: Both
Aerosmith or Red hot Chili peppers: RED HOT CHILI PEPPERS *dave navarro used to be one -dances-*
Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
Drinks with or without ice cubes: either
Give or recieve: recieve lol

Drink more than three times a week?: not anymore
Take a shower everyday: YES
Go to college: not right now
Believe in love at first sight: yes
Want to get married: maybe
Believe in yourself: rarely
Have any tattoos/where: no, but im going to get a star below my ear
Piercings/where?: 3 in my left ear and 2 in my right
Think you're a health freak? no
Get along with your parents?: HA
Like thunderstorms?: yes
Do You Believe in magic?: *pulls a bunny out of a hat* no
Believe in miracles?: yes
Have a sense of humor?: sometimes

When/How do you want to die?: peacfully
What country would you most like to visit?: austrailia
What car do you want: shrugs one that works
Where do you want to live: arizona
Best eye color: green
Best hair color: dun matter
Best date location: beacj
Dream Star: Marilyn Manson & PJ Harvey

When's the last time you slept with a stuffed animal: last night
How many rings till you answer the phone: usually 2 to 3
What's on your mouse pad? a kitty sleeping in a hammoch
Is the glass half empty or half full: half full
Have you ever been in love: yes

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Date:2001-08-16 21:47

do you think... being such a nice person that i am, that a guy thinks that i gave him a concussion just by slapping him? hmph!!

14 lovers / love me

Date:2001-08-16 21:31
Subject:nothing new
Mood: relaxed

hola everybody. i know i had to write... well i didnt have to write, i wanted to. so here i am trying to look for any sort of motivation possible. nothing much really happened today. i got up at 4:50am to say goodbye to my dad because he left for Canada for a week (omfg) this morning. I tried going back to sleep, but people really have no fucking mercy. i must have gotten 20 phone calles and at least 18 of them were hangups. stupid ass mofo's. so i finally gave up on sleeping at 11:30 and just kinda lounged around the house and did laundry. so, my mom came home, i got stuck cooking dinner yadda yadda. tomorrow i have a lunch-in at the hard rock cafe with some of the kids from school. but no, i cant go because my mom blew her top about me doing laundry (wtf?) and i called up brian, my only ride home and told him i couldn't go. then i apologized to my mom for wanting clean clothes and she started crying and carrying on about how i'm not happy and she wishes there was something she could do yadda yadda. we made up basically. oh... i'm excited. sunday there's a 80% possibility that my friend dan from the keys is coming up for the afternoon *dances* he has to check with his boss first (grr). i hope he comes, i hope he comes, i hope he comes... that would just be so wonderful!! OoooO, mark called me today. ill be surprised if he ever calls me again becausei hung up on him since my mom and i were fighting... (THANKS MOM!! )-:< ) he said he'd call me tomorrow. i don't know... we'll see what happens. that's about all the excitement for now. Ooo, i took a picture of my new virtually kitty.. lmao, i'm lame, i know... here it is:

5 lovers / love me

Date:2001-08-15 21:19
Subject:home again home again (BLEH!)
Mood: loved

i haven't even been home for 24 hours and i'm hating it. i hate it here, i despise it here, and i have nothing to look forward to outhere. mymom is putting in applications to get transfered out to phoenix which would abosolutey kick ass because i would get to be with eric. eric is a guy i met out in phoenix. we almost fucked, but we just messed around until his friends james and mark walked in. mark was gay so that didnt bother me but james did. it was a crazy night out though, and i miss my eric :( oh well. anyway, i emailed him... here's out little email conversations

Subj: it's ashley
Date: 8/14/01 5:08:55 AM Eastern Daylight Time
From: ashley
To: eric

hey... anyway, i just wanted to thank you for a wonderful time tonight. i really like you, and i hope we can still stay close through emails, calling, etc. here's some other info... *just* incase you need it.


Ashley *****
**** ** ***** ***
*****, fl *****

Phone Number: (954) ***-****

I hope to hear from you soon. Hopefully I will be back out here shortly, be sure to keep in touch, ok? Hope to hear from you soon.

Hugs and Kisses....

Subj: Re: it's ashley
Date: 8/15/01 8:47:06 PM Eastern Daylight Time
From: eric
To: ashley

hey Ashley,

this is Eric (just in case you didn't recall my name)
yeah i had a great time that night as well.
hopefully you will come back out here.
not much has happened since that night. at least nothing interesting.
well, i gotta go my class is about to start.


Subj: Re: it's ashley
Date: 8/15/01 8:58:59 PM Eastern Daylight Time
From: ashley
To: eric

Eric -

Yes... I did remember your name, I'm not a complete dumbass lol. Well, I came home yesterday, my flight was horrible. Bad timing to find out you have a sinus infection or whatever. Before I left I played pool with the guy with the blonde hair, not James, but the other one... er, i forgot his name. I know that next summer for sure I'm going to be going out there longer than this time. My mom is putting in for job positions out there, and I guess all I can really do is keep my fingers crossed. This may sound retarded, and I don't get me wrong or anything, but I was curious, what do you think of long distance relationships? Well, I know you have class and everything. Give me your number by the way and I'll get off my lazy ass and try to find some money and buy a phone card to call you. I miss you!! Write me back.

Kisses and Hugs,
Ashley :)

isn't love grand? well, i have to go, my mom is once again bitching at me.

3 lovers / love me

Date:2001-08-12 22:16
Mood: exhausted

omfg..... i'm so damn tired. i'm going to need a vacation from this vacation. anyway, nothing too exciting happened today. no more car break ins. lol, thank god! i dragged my lazy ass out of bed around 11:30... got dressed yadda yadda. then randy was all like "lets go out to lunch and a movie." i was all ummm... ok??? so we went to chilli's for lunch. shrugs, it was ok i guess nothing too exciting. then we decided to go see legally blonde and to me... it was a stupid fucked up chick flick movie but at least i got to do something. then we ran and picked up more black hair dye... lmfao by the time im 30 im not going to have any hair left!! then we went to a discount cd store place thingy. i was good,.. i *behaved* lol. i only baught 2 cd's. kittie and alkaline trio. i was going to get marilyn manson, tori amos, weezer and alice in chains but i decided not too. well.. out of $200 i only have about $130 left *shreaks* of my money was wasted on hair dye. well thats all for now *waves*

4 lovers / love me

Date:2001-08-11 19:38
Subject:salt river
Mood: hyper

today kicked ass... well, some of it did anyhow. doug's car got broken into last night, and the damn cops never called us back for a fucking report. grrr. well, around noon we decided to go tubing in salt river or whatever. we got there... got our shit yadda yadda, got on the river and 10 minutes later i found a guy *yay*. um, i never got his name and it really doesn't matter because he was *cough* 20 *cough* so that was cool for about 10 minutes, lmfao. then randy gave this 3 kids beer and i was all like wtf?? you gave them beer but not me!? so i had *cough* some sips of the other kids beer. then i thought i smelt pot and i go to randy "do u smell pot?" and he's all like YUMMY, i do i do i do!!! doug was sitting there like "omfg" so the guy goes "do u guys want some? plenty more where that came from!" and doug goes "i have a drug test thursday" and randy is like, sure why not. and i was sitting there and i got a wee bit 'happy' off of the second hand smoking i guess you could say. weeee. then it starting to rain and semi hail on us. holy fuck it hurt like fuuuuuuck! so then after 3 hours of the river we came back and i did my hair black. sexi. i doubt it'll last too long though :( anyway, that's all of the excitement for today ;)

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Date:2001-08-10 23:43
Subject:in pheonix
Mood: relaxed

well, i have made it here all in one piece. after 7 stressful hours of sitting on a damn plane, i must say it was partially well worth the wait and the suffering. so here's all that pretty much happened so far. my plane took off from west palm around 3:30 (eastern time) and i had a touchdown in tampa. well, on the flight from west palm to tampa, i sat next to this preppy ass bitch and this guys in his mid to late 40's. the guy was kind of weird. thankfully from west palm to tampa is only a 50 minute flight. then people from the tampa airport came onto my flight. i got stuck sitting next to and "elderly" couple. i got the aisle seat though *woo*. so since i didn't get much sleep the night before, i passed out. well, all of a sudden i had a guy on top of me talking to the people really loudly next to me. i was all like what the fuck, if you want to sit here, please just ask because i'm tired as fuck and all i want to do is sleep and not have your ass in my face! ugh! i wasn't the only one he annoyed either. so luckily others were there to back me up. so then the guy next to me had major gas and i wanted to jump off the fucking plane because of it. gag. so my next touchdown was in san antonio texas. thankfully the old coupl got off. then i had this lady who was 43 and really cool sit next to me along with this other guy who gave me this really cool pen. lmfao, i was easily amused by it so he gave it to me, and he offered to buy me an alcoholic beverage... i was like... "ummmm im not 21?" he's like "oh, mmmm right" i was laughing so hard. then i got off the plane yadda yadda. today i got up around 9:30am (pacific time) and chilled out for a bit. then we decided to go see American Pie 2 @ 4:20. it was ok, i like the 1st one better. shrugs. then we went to hot topic where i baught some *cough* black hair dye *cough* even though im not supposed to. it's semi permenant... but *cough* i know how to make it last longer. so then we went to this place called castles and coasters or something. and it was a tiny amusement park with miniature golfing etc. tomorrow we're going to salt river or whatever and it should be a ton of fun. anyway ... im really tired, im going to hit the sack.

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Date:2001-08-09 10:54
Mood: cranky

*laughing at herself* this is not funny. i tried going to bed at a decent time last night, i didn't go to bed until 6:30 am. oyness. so i watched vh1 and mtv for almost all night. i am very disgusted in the way women dress for music video such as nelly's and p. diddy's etc. i wanted to puke. anyway, im going to get going, i have to shower and get ready and shit. I will be back Tuesday, august 14th. love u all!

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Date:2001-08-08 17:21
Subject:i'm leaving on a jet plane, i don't know when i'll be back again
Mood: apathetic

don't mind the subject, lmfao. anyway, last night i wa very sick and I actually went to bed at a descent time *gasp* 11:45. holy fuck what the hell is wrong with me!?!?!? got up at 11:45am and basically just did laundry, laundry, laundry, laundry and did i mention laundry? now all i have to do is pack. i think im going to go back and lay down though bleh, if i do go to bed now, i probably wont sleep for the rest of the night which wouldnt be that bad of a thing. oy, tomorrow i have a 6� hour flight to arizona. watch, i'm going to get stuck to some scary person and they're going to molest me on the plane and i'll die. well, not really. argh.... too much to think about. anyway... i'll do a minnie post before i go *smile*

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Date:2001-08-07 22:51
Subject:sleepy and sick
Mood: sick

not much has happened today. my friend kanishk called me from washington, dc. we had a nice little chit chat. went to my shrink yadda yadda. then i came online and chatted with jill. she's going to vermont tomorrow and i forgot to let her borrow my jeans last night, i'm such a dumbass. i'm really worn out tonight, im literally dragging my feet. i haven't even started packing for pheonix, and i leave in less than 48 hours, not to mention i have laundry as tall as the empire state building. i did a new layout today, my friend dan said the other one was too colorless, so this adds a little color to it. bleh, i think im going to puke so i'm going to go hit the sack soon. night all.

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Date:2001-08-07 15:15
Mood: lazy

went to my shrink today, i feel kind of better although i dont think he really understands my viewing on some things. we bitched at my sister at that was fun because im starting to despise her even though shes 1,200 miles away.

when i came home, i was complaining i was hungry and that i didnt feel like cooking, and my dad called me the opitimy *however you spell it* of laziness. well you know what DAD, at least i get off my ass to open a door and walk the dogs. SO FUCK YOU DAD.

well, christian and i are no longer friends. oh well, i honestly think its his lost....

i am starting on a stict diet today. after this bag of popcorn lmfao. there will be no more fat ashley. i am DETERMIND to loose 20-40lbs even if it kills me.

thats about all happening

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